its my day o f f

Hello darling!

I have been thinking a lot lately and wanted to record my many scrambled goals, thoughts and questions rolling around in my head. Maybe it will help me to sleep better, who knows?

- I want to make a demo reel. Do I think I have good material for a great demo reel? Not really, but I can shorten it up to make the good reactions I have be the focus, instead of the horrible sound and cheezy lines... I don't know how to edit, so I will have to pick out a couple scenes I want and ask a friend to do it for free or cheap. (Which means low priority, which means I will have to wait forever for it to be done) But hey, I want the advantage of having a reel! 

And hopefully that reel will get me work, better work, with which I can fashion a lovely new reel out of!

-I want to learn out to edit. I cannot possibly afford (time or my non-existent money) to go tot film school or anything elaborate. But I do own a lovely little macbook, with basic video editing software and I have youtube. You'd think I'd be able to make something useful out of it.... I wish someone could teach me how to edit a reel or little short films / music videos I might want to make. just for practice. 

-I got a new job! God always has a way of reassuring me I'm not a total screwup when I feel hopeless and broke. I started at the Intercontinental Hotel Los Angeles Century City (yes, that is the full name) as a front desk agent thanks to my good friend actress and director, Anna. The job pays well, and it is my first full time job with benefits.  I like this security! Being able to afford things and pay off my debt slowly but surely is fabulous. However I do not like being unavailable. I haven't been able to go to a single audition since I've started and I haven't had much of a social life either. But now that I am less worried about learning everyones names and the computer system (a real, complicated pain, i might add) I can focus on executing my precious time off on what I want. (which unfortunately, is damn near everything.)

-I've had to walk almost exactly a mile to work every day and I dont mind the walk, I feel good and my legs are adjusting to the demands of standing for 8 hours straight much better than I thought. I've also lost 2 pounds from walking. (no diet this month, i'm too broke to buy healthy foods, not too mention too tired to care much). However, I wish the hotel had a better parking solution, as I have to search and fight for a new spot every day on Pico...

-I cannot wait to find a new apartment in LA! I dont know how much I will be able to afford yet. I am thinking I'll be able to swing anywhere from 600-800 a month if it includes utilities and I don't need a new car :/

I haven't decided whether I would prefer having a roommate or not, I suppose it depends on the roommate. But here are some of the things I would like to see in my ideal apartment search:

1. Parking! Parking included, no fighting for a spot at my own place! I want my own parking spot or permit, and I need to feel safe parking and walking to my apartment. 

2. Location. I need to be close to Century City/ West LA (my job and Ryan) while still being close to Hollywood and freeways for auditions. I am hoping to find something off Santa Monica Blvd, Olymipic or Pico.... all very busy, diverse areas near everything I need. Also considering West Hollywood, Beverly Hills (I know its ridiculously expensive and boring but it is so close to my work!!) and Santa Monica...

3. Space. The smaller the better. I'm never home and I never sleep. I just need a place to keep my crap. I do not want a lot of clutter or a lot to have to clean. a studio or loft would be superb for now until I can afford a nice apartment and a social life...

4. Perks. I would IDEALLY love to have a pool, fitness center, running trail nearby, and washer and dyer (I don't mind paying, I just need it there), and cable and wifi of some sort to use. I would also really really, really really, REALLY love rooftop access or a balcony with a great view. But I realize that is asking for more than my share of good luck in LA, so I'll stick with finding a safe place to park.    ;)

5. Month to month rent would be ideal as I have no idea where I'll be in 6 months to a year from now. Also being able to get a kitten and keep it there would be nice! I want a little black kitten so badly!!!

My ideal roommate would be a 20-30 yr old female, clean and friendly. Preferably someone with high ambitions in the entertainment industry so we could understand if not support each other's goals not to mention crazy schedules and sleeping hours. Or someone who is quiet and doesn't mind me hardly ever being home. My ideal roommate would be a fellow actress or model or director who understands auditions, "image", pressure and creativity.

I think I've said too much but at least it's not swimming around in my head anymore. There. its out there, and if anyone wants to look for an apartment with me, I would be delighted! And I wont hold you to any of my ideals. They are just me thinking about what I would want....

-Does anyone know of a good place to sell computer parts? I have a 250 GB RAM for my PC laptop that I never used but my uncle threw away the damn packaging, it was worth $55.00. I would like to sell it if I could find the right place to go to.....

-Does anyone edit and put together demo reels for free or for trade? I can't imagine it would take long, I don't have much material :/

-I'm sad that I've spent the entire summer indoors. Not once have I gotten to get to the beach :(

-Yes, I do get discounts on many hotel chains now. Intercontinental, Holiday Inn, Holiday Inn Express, Candlewood Suites, Staybridge Suites, Hotel Indigo, and Crowne Plaza. at least 20 % for me and 15% for friends and family depending on availability, so let me know  if you need the hook up!

Blue Bloods the movie cast:

There is no easy way to say that the Twilight series has come to an end (*tear) but ever since then I have been trying to find a decent book to get into. I run into a few good ones including the magical trilogy by Libba Bray "A Great and Terrible Beauty", "Rebel Angels" and "The Sweet Far Thing" (which is by far one of my favorite series now and I can't wait to list the cast for that as well, seeing how I fit the main character's desciption perfectly, muahaha..)

Anyhow this book, "Blue Bloods" is like Gossip Girl (NYC it-girls) and Twilight (vampires) put together.

What more could you need right?

(apparently a solid story line... the ending was very anti-climatic.)

However I still believe this could be made INTO a great movie, if they changed a few things to make it more interesting and less cheesy.

When reading the book I pictured this sweet, red headed texan character named Bliss to be played by one of my favorite actresses, Jayma Mays (Heroes) and so I thought it would be fun to cast it. 

I dont really want to break down the book for you but fans of the book will recognize each character easily.

There are brother and sister twins in the book, Mimi and Jack Force who kinda had a thing together in a "past life" so I thought Blake Lively (who is also a perfect blonde vampire looking actress) and her real life beau Penn Bradgley (spelling) would be perfect for it since they also fit the book's description.

Alexis Bledel would be the main character, Schuyler (pronounced sky-lar) because she is the most beautiful dark haired, innocent blue eyed  pale actress i could think of for the role. Her character is very goth and gritty.

I'm tired and i've been meaning to post this dream casting for a while now.

if you have any questions, complaints or better suggestions (i DARE you to find a better Bliss) let me know!

xoxo

am

oh and ps!

new episodes of GG start sept 1st! eeek!!!

pps!

Twilight the movie's release date has been changed to earlier than dec 12th! ill find out when!

My Dream

I remember arriving at a beautiful old house in the country, with a long wooden fence around the backyard. It was a summer house of our or something, and we shared it with a few other girls and families, as it was huge. it had 3 stories above ground, each with a rustic balcony with sun chairs. the house was made of wood on the outside, like a cabin almost, but white plaster on the inside, well decorated and neat. Earlier in the dream we arrived through an elevator and looking at the buttons i realized this house had 16 stories to explore. we went to the top and settled in. I'm not sure who i was with, it was a girl. we went out to the balcony that over looked the other two lower balconies and the back yard. The back yard is set in a forrest, fenced in lightly with long wooden posts. it had a pretty rounded-yet-not-circled pool with plants near the deep end. there was people bbq-ing out back and they were all nice and happy. 

I saw Mimi (my grandma, who raised me, so for everyones sake, ill just call her mom) arrive with 2 lady friends and settle in on the level right below me. as we were getting settled, i heard a shout and looked over the balcony on the 2nd level.

There was a big beautiful fire burning the forrest near our house. I asked them to put it out and they said we cant, but its fine, we need to get rid of some trees. I thought, alright, we can spare the fence and the trees but i hope it dosnt get closer bc we only have a garden hose.

Then I went inside and ran around the house looking for something and exploring. I met up with 2 other girls who ran up and down the many stairs with me. the middle step on every landing seemed to be a big dip, instead of a step. and oddly enough it was full of soft, slippery pasta noodles.  Fettucine, actually. Mimi and her friends got changed while ran around the house doing god knows what. I remember overhearing it was Mimi's 65th birthday and i had forgotten how old she was.

Then I kinda woke up shut off my alarm and couldnt shake the dream, so i went into another one.

I was in a bed (yeah, no crap. haha) and the bed was half in, half out side a tall, shallow cave. the spiders started crawling in my bed so i squirmed and got out. when i got out, i was no longer half awake, but fully immersed in my new dream.

I was in a outside party with friends at night. there were two sides to the party, but i cant remember what. some really annoying girl was there, and i had to fix all her mistakes she made to the party. The party was good, but by the end of the dream i was struggling to escape the party.

when i gained half awakeness again i was thinking "get UP. get up. get up. get up! get up!!"

So I think the last dream had something to do with falling back asleep even though I knew I had to wake up to get to the bank on time. I woke up 10 mins past the bank closing. dangit!!! I cant never get to the bank on saturdays!

anyways, I know this is getting long but this is mostly for me anyways, as i believe dreams are a way of getting your attention about things. I can NEVER remember mine so I thought I'd write it down real quick before i did anything else and use the website Cassie gave me: www.dreammoods.com  to decipher some of it.

-Grandmother- represents protection and unconditional love.

-Mother- Life, guidance and comfort. Dreaming that you are having a conversation with your Mom denotes a matter that has preoccupied your mind and you are not sure how to deal with it in your waking life. it indicates unresolved problems with her. Hearing her call out to you signifies you have been negligent in your duties and responsibilities, you are pursuing the wrong path. To hear your mom cry denotes illness or affliction.

-House being on fire- you need to undergo some transformation. also highlights passion and love for those around you.

-House- represents your own soul and self. the attic, or top, represents your intellect, the basement represents the unconscious. if the house is empty, it is feelings of insecurtiy. of the house is shifting, it suggests personal changes and changing your belief system. If you live with others in your waking life but dream that you live alone, you need to take your independence.

To clean your house, suggests needing to clear out thoughts and seeking self improvement.

If the house is old and run down, it represents your old beliefs, attitudes and how you used to think or feel. a situation in your current life may be bringing up those same feelings.

-Pool- a pool of water indicates that you need to understand and deal with your emotions, you need to dive right in (thats funny bc i stepped over the pool, very carefully.) alternatively, a pool may indicate your need for cleansing. you need to wash away the past.

-Smoking- signifies a need for a break. also indicates yu are trying to shield yourself and others against your emotions. you have trouble letting others in. (hahahahahahaha wow.)

-Steps/Stairs- efforts in achieving your goals, ambition and material gains.

-Pasta noodles- To see noodles in your dream signifies an abnormal appetite and desire.

-Cave- the cave signifies refuge or the unconscious mind.

-Party- suggests that you need to get out more and enjoy yourself. also a reflection of your social skills. if the party is good, you are confident, if it os bad, you are might lack social skills.

-Baby in pool- Babies may represent an aspect of yourself that is vulnerable and helpless. If you dream that you forgot you had a baby, then it suggests that you are trying to hide your own vulnerbilities. you do not want to let others know of you weaknesses.

-Elevator- Going up signifies that you will quickly rise to status and wealth. you may also have risen to a higher lever of consciousness and are looking at the world from an elevated viewpoint.

Thanks for reading. this particularly detailed dream has been very insightful!

xoxo

The Creeper aka El Viejo

So I work at a Japanese food place.

There are several regular customers, though one always makes a point of standing out.

In fact there are so many regular customers that we have 5 Daniels. One Daniel always makes his stay more memorable than the rest.

The late 45 year old man works construction and drives a white construction van, other wise known to most young girls as a rape van. (you know, the dark windows, big side sliding door to just drive by and kidnap someone in, like in the movies?)

He is balding, and tries to cover it up by buzzing his salt and pepper hair. He leans entirely too far over the counter and smells like a construction worker, as in, sweat. 

He had the nerve to ask me last week, "So when are you gonna go for a ride on my motorcycle?"

Me: (taken aback, regains composure, searching for an obvious excuse) "Oh, it's too hot for riding motorcycles, I don't think so."

Daniel: "Oh. Well then. Let me rephrase it. (Leers) When are you gonna go out on a date with me?" 

Me: (studying his older-than-my-dad body) "Oh. *laughs hard* I'm taken."

Daniel: "Aw! Thats too bad ... Well, I guess I won't flirt with you anymore..."

Me: (under my breath) "yes please... don't"

.....................

NEXT DAY.

He returns.

I notice, to my dismay, I notice he does not have a wedding ring, which my spanish sushi maker friend Emily asked...

Daniel: "Hi there... You know you broke my heart yesterday."

Me: (glaring at his lewdness) "Oh, did I? Thats really too bad."

Daniel: laughs nervously, "You don't care much do you?"

Me: (putting extra ice in my glare, while smiling) "Nope."

................

TODAY.

I saw his phone order and dreaded the day already

. Oh, crap. HOw am I gonna avoid the creeper today. I really don;t want to have to deal with him. 

So i found a prefect way to avoid the bastard. 

I saw him get out of his rape van and i went straight into the bathroom and re-arranged my hair in several different fashionable styles before I decided I wanted to come out to a Daniel-free store.

It worked, and since there is no Spanish word for "Creepy Old man" Emily and I call him "El Viejo" when he is around... "The old man".

its pretty fun.

oh and whats better is I wont HAVE to deal with El Viejo anymore. or this fast food job anymore.

I just got a long waited job offer from Intercontinental Hotels as a front desk agent, full time at 13/hr!

This is the best day ever!

Goodbye fast food.

Goodbye minimum wage.

Goodbye El Viejo!

jobs.

I thought for fun, and for most of my dear friends who have wondered about my mysterious work history, which is elusive, even to myself at times, I would post a fun list, oh, im also the queen of run-on sentences and bad grammar, so get used to it :)

I will start at the beginning of my employment journey. High school. McEachern High school to be exact.

1. Publix Supermarkets: My first job, forced upon me, in every literal sense by my Mimi, who not only believed in strong work ethic, but not able to spoil me, pushed me to apply as soon as legally possible, "or else". Mind you, "or else" in Mimi-talk meant horrific devastation on my part, including but not limited to: Groundation, Cell-phone confiscation, Sunday-morning-orange-rolls-depravation, good-cooking-depravation, constant nagging as well as phone nagging, and removing the door to my room, followed by my bathroom, if I did not comply, if none of these worked (and they usually did, despite my strong will to have a ferris buller-style summer) Mimi could always threaten to ship me back to California, although, those threats were usually saved for special occasions (like buying an eyebrow ring, skipping school, and hiding my boyfriend in the closet). But, we can laugh about it now! (I hope....) This was my longest job to date, spanning 3 years of my young life. I worked as a Cashier, Stock-girl (the only one, which was perfectly fine by me, seeing as I got spoiled and never had to show up on time or lift heavy things.) Dairy-girl* (*worst job ever, loading and unloading milk pallets that constantly broke and spoiled. Spent my entire shift in a feezer or fridge, pushing dairy around. ) and last but not least, the Bakery! I loved my job at the bakery even though by the time I finally got to the position I wanted ever since I started (decorating pastries and cakes) I had one month before I moved to California.
2. Bruster's Ice Cream: My first "second" job. I got this job after convincing Mimi this had the best benefits (free ice cream) by bringing her home our favorite "double chocolate chip" ice cream everyday. I worked this a few days a week, for a couple hours, mostly cleaning, gossiping to my openly gay theater friend/manager, Jay and "sampling" every flavor. One of the most fun jobs I've had. Carefree, silly and ice-cream and hot fudge everyday... mmmm.... Oh, and I instantly became more popular when my friends realized I was a free-ice cream giving Goddess. That doesnt hurt, either.
3. Forever 21: the second day I landed in california, I went job hunting. I didn't know anyone out here but my family, and I certainly couldnt stay up till 3 in the morning watching Zoolander in my undies, eating leftover pizza with my uncle, (trust me) so I went in search of fun loving girls like me. Enter Forever 21 asian chicks. I got hired the day of my interview and started working a couple days a week, seeing employees come and go like hot cakes. I worked there for a month before I realized 2 things about retail: 1. The girls that work here are fake. 2. Retail SUCKS. (especially the pay) 
4. Johnny Carino's Italian: I quickly applied here, mostly out of the love for their garlic bread. It also had a huge NOW HIRING sign over its newly constructed building. I worked at Forever 21 and here for a while before sticking to real money. I eventually worked my way up to server, and met my first friend, Hannah. Hannah had sparkly eyeshadow and a cute blonde, emo hair cut. I knew we would be friends immediately. (Mostly out of missing my cute emo-haircutting friend Erin, back home). Hannah also cut hair and  soon adopted my short pixie cut of 06. I made lots of money serving here and loved Carino's very much. My British friend Jane and I played several pranks on each other and I finally understood how people could love the place they worked. Sometimes we made fun of a fat angry woman called Kristen to ourselves. The evil Kristen eventually became a manager somehow. Then the Evil Kristen made my life a living hell, and after several servers threw in the towel and quit, I put in my two-weeks notice, convinced I would go to a better restaurant, one where GM's and managers were nice, and patient beings who didnt snap all the time, and micro-manage you. I've never quite found that restaurant...
5. Red Robin: I applied here mostly, again, out of the love for their steak fries. I got hired as a server, yet after training they made me host for 4 months. I made several friends here that have come and gone but most might remember Alli Byer. She was a server at the time and a friend of ours, Ashley, invited me over to her house for a post-halloween party. I had no friends and hated boys, having just broken up with my ex of 2 and a half years, so I obliged and made all of my current great friends there around her bonfire (Michaela, Brenda and Mike). I eventually made it to expo, with promise of becoming a server. After 6 months of barely being able to make rent off of a host/expo wage, I had to quit.
6. Life's A Beach: I'm not kidding. I worked here and Red Robin around the same time. I was desperate for a job, so I got a job somewhere I swore I would never step foot in, a tanning salon. I worked here for almost a year making many fun girl friends, meeting a girl named Michelle who ended up being a whole lot of fun. too much fun. That girl got me in way too much trouble (i.e: Nate, Vinnie) I eventually got so burnt out working every waking hour, I kept coming in late for work, and got fired for the first time in my life. (boo.) It was actually a pretty scary and dumb experience, and if you know me, you've heard the story...
7. Famous Dave's BBQ: Oh, Famous Dave's. I applied here out of no reason whatsoever! On a complete whim, I drove by and applied. I had orientation and training with the most handsome man I've ever laid my eyes on. He was thin (just the way I like 'em), with dark brown hair and impossibly blue eyes.  We ended up in the same training groups and after explaining to me that he also was into acting and was a Christian, I was sold. I also became great friends with Michaela who was a host there and is one of my best friends today. I ended up quitting after Mother's From Hell, and I lost it, walking out of the restaurant with several other servers, after a manager accused me of drinking on the clock (I didnt even drink off the dang clock!) and several orders went missing all day. Ryan and I have been dating for a year and a half now :) 
8. Starbuck's Coffee: I got this job out of desperation of not having a job all summer, after quitting Famous Dave's and almost giving up on the restaurant business altogether. I worked in the Simi Valley Mall, serving caramel frappucinos to 8th graders all day and making near minimum wage. I made several nice, optimistic friends there, who I was very sad to leave, when Quitting time came. I had started Extra work, or background work. I was working on real TV shows and movies. I was hopeful to become SAG soon and realized if I got a call in service to  book me everyday, I could make more doing extra work than I could at Starbucks, so I quit Starbucks, walking blindly into the glamourous world of non-union extra work with nothing but my film experience to go on....... (which was none.)
9. Extra work: Basically being herded and treated like dumb, annoying cattle all day (literally over 12 hours a day) in different locations through out southern california, starting at 6am. I never saw my friends and put many miles on my car before realizing this wasn't going to cut it. The great part about extra work is that you get to meet all kinds of new people (actors, writers, models, etc) and get ideas and connections from that. You learn what to do (AND what NOT to do) very quickly doing extra work if you are observant. I have met one of my bestest friends on the set of "Caveman" (Show based off of Geico caveman commercials, now cancelled), Cassie. I eventually cancelled my call-in service because it wasnt very good and I wasnt getting enough work after the writer's strike, and my rent being raised, for not being in college. hoo-ray.
10. Redfish: I applied here, hoping for a good, fine-dining restaurant to work in, but since I had Maverick's call me back first, and training interfered with Mavrick's WORK schedule (where I could make money right away), I quit after 1 day, regretfully, hoping I made the right decision. (I was wrong.)
11. Maverick's Steakhouse: I worked here at the beginning of the year. At first I thought this was the coolest restaurant to work in yet, non-corporate! Our Christmas party was consisted of closing down the restaurant early, having homemade mexican food carne-asda and guacamole, as well as shots of Patron Silver for everyone and an open bar. But at the time I was not 21, so I did not indulge, lest my new boss think me a lush. Eventually Days got slow and business came to a lull. I trained a new girl who started gossip and drama no body wanted and pretty much got phased off the schedule over a misunderstanding. The misunderstanding being that, I have no idea what happened. One day my boss was buying me dinner and asking my opinion on the new lights/paint job, and the next, he was telling me if I didn't stop behaving poorly, I could just leave. whaaaaaat? *sigh*  I wont even go into it....
12. The Secret Garden/Coco D' Amour: These 2 fine dining restaurants I almost forgot because I worked for them so briefly. I only worked there for my good British friend, Jane (See Johnny Carino's). She was a manager at both places, and you can even see what she is like when she is forced to be very serious on camera, go here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cw3BWxJ8cGs and just fast forward to 00:23 or 06:45 seconds for Jane :) I also Worked for Coco D' Amour, a fun, tropical little restaurant in Simi Valley that unfortunately didnt get enough business. 
13. Sooki's Japanese Grille: This delicious, small version on Panda Express is located in the middle of nowhere (also know as a small part of T.O. called Newbury Park.) I work for a KOREAN man, who now owns the place, who makes sushi and shuffles in and out of the kitchen smiling and mumbling in half-korean-half-english, giving me gifts of fig-newtons or egg rolls when he likes me, and accuses me of stealing change from the tip jar. (we're talking nickels and dimes, here.) I make barely above minimum wage (which I understand, in california, its nothing, but in georgia, it would be enough per hour to get a two story home in Hiram complete with paved driveway and in ground swimming pool, but still. its minimum wage in california for a reason, its EXPENSIVE to live here!) I am currently weighing other employment options, as the last post suggests.

I really don't know how I've survived out here so far and it will be a miracle when I can pay another bill, much less rent anytime soon, but I'd still rather be here than anywhere else in the world. I love California. It's beautiful and full of the most interesting, driven people on the planet. Not to mention Ryan :)

I do hope you have enjoyed Amber's work history, in cliffnotes.

I also think

sincerely, for the record, that Ryan should start a blog on here :(

fun math?

thats right baby,

im back.

I have a brand new mac book. I'm pretty sure any ounce that Ryan does not own of my heart, belongs to Alice (my mac book's name). There is just simply too much to catch up on. First on my agenda.... to list my agenda, i suppose. let's use bullets.

• fun math
• list of jobs I've had in the small amount of time I've been offline.
• Ryan
• Christi
• film and la la land
• starting on whats inside my head, in the positive sense, lately. mainly life stories and secrets.

Very well, then.

Fun Math.

Yes, those two words did just come together, if only once.

I am looking into a proper job. You know, one with above minimum wage rates, health insurance and benefits? To tell you the truth I've never really considered this before but in talking to Christi *(a very helpful new friend i will get to later) I found that an insurance company is hiring RIGHT NEXT to my house. Literally, within walking distance. Starting at around 12 to 15 and hr full time, 8-5. I could really use that kind of money, especially after having to take out a payday loan for rent this month.

I've been thinking about said "cube" job for the past few days. These are the terms that I have come to. pro's and con's.

• PRO'S: Money. around $480 a week, rounding down to the starting pay of 12 and hour. a week. and they pay weekly. Benefits. Wheter or not it comes with discounted health insurance plans (which im pretty sure it does) I would be able to afford to get my teeth cleaned, get birth control and adderall renewed. I can't even think of how fantastic that would be. and if i had adderall, i could work harder. Also, It is within walking distance from my house. I could save a ton of gas and car problems, and get into better shape! Also, if i ever wanted to transfer (which I couldnt ever see happening) I could transfer to any smaller office from corporate. 
• CON'S: It's tedious, and I'll be surrounded by people older than me that dont understand actors. Which I suppose doesnt really matter, but how can I pretend to be someone I'm not at lunch break? (I guess I could "act", hehe) It's from 8-5 every weekday (and no, i dont know that for sure. maybe i could work later in the day somehow, or 4 days a week instead of 5, incase central casting decides to passout SAG vouchers like hot cakes when I can't take them again. long story....) 8-5. More getting up early (which im NOT good at.) which would mean so many things; being late unless i could run to starbucks every morning or have adderall, not being able to have a social life as all my friends are servers and they start work at 5, have to see my family more, as i will have the EXACT same schedule as them (gag!) and I have a feeling i'll be seeing even LESS of Ryan. I'll be getting off work and he will either still be at work or be getting off around midnight..... in LA. and because I have to get up at 7 (at least) I wont be able to go out late. ever. Also, I risk having my family getting the idea that I'm suddenly becoming responsible and giving up on acting in some way, while at the same time disappointing my acting friends, thinking ive given up on my craft, by taking a life consuming "day job". Another worry is that I won't be any good at it, or i'll end up getting fired for waking up late or missing work for a film.... Or even worse, missing a film for work. It's true, you are constantly disappointing SOMEONE in this crazy industry...

Now keep in mind I'm mostly just getting my ideas sorted and venting right now. Also keep in mind that my pro's and con's are listed in order of importance for the most part.

$12/hr x 40/hrs a week = $480

$480 x 4 weeks = $1,920 a month.

right now im making about $400-600 a month. depending on how many hours i manage and how many gigs i land and how much i eat.

The next numbers is just for me, they dont make sense bc i've rounded up and not explained them....

cell bill= 140 on a bad month of overages.

wamu cc= 700 total to pay off

wells fargo cc= 2000 total to pay off

car insurance= 600, twice a yr, due next month.

rent= 300

bare minimum living expenses= 100/ month.

this month with loan (add $300)

140

600

600

100

300 for cc's

=1,740

anyway,

remaining cc debt= 2700 (rounded way up)

minus 1 month of work's paychecks= $780

minus 1 month of work's paychecks=$1,140 LEFT OVER.

*********So, 3 months of solid work, debt gone. I think I can do that...***************

I think I will try that.

hello?

does this work?

R.I.P laptop...

Last night, I finally got the new RAM needed for my laptop and sent it over to Jerry's house to have him install it and fix my laptop. Well, it didnt matter because by the time he got to it, the hard drive had crashed. CRASHED.

*sigh*

So, I either need a new hard drive around $100, and then try to install the new RAM $60, and then ty to fix it again.... or just buy a new laptop. (at least$500) I am not in a position to do ANYTING right now, unfortunately, as I have no real steady income. So, I'm not going to do anything about it, except use other people's computers (which dont work so well because my reume and most of my photos are on my laptop. Good news is, Jerry saved a backup of my data, mostly music and pictures, AND my resume (thank God!)

I am back to extra work right now. Today is my day off. Though tomorrow will be tricky, I have 3 birthdays to get to, after work (because ER called me back for thurs)! Cassie is having her 22nd bday (yay!) party in hollywood, which I can probably make ater work bc she stays up late. However, my grandma and cousin Tim are having their Bdays together at my house tomorrow afternoon! errrg... maybe I will see if I can do a night call tonight so I can be there tomorrow...hmm..

In the mean time, I have taken my focus off of acting for two reasons. One, it is STRESSING me out really bad, bc there are sooo so many things that I want to do, but can't do right now.

Two, bc I am broke and I barely have enough gas to get me to auditions and I need to focus on getting my credit cards paid off, getting my car fixed, getting my laptop fixed or buy a new one and focus on moving out of BFNohwere (aka simi), and I can't do any of that without a steady, good income. And I can't focus on making money if I'm focing on trying to act.

Unfotunately.

I'm not saying I'm quitting, or giving up. Just the opposite in fact. I am preparing myself for a career of rainy days, auditions and submissions, all of which I need money, a car and a laptop! As much as I hate it, I need to focus on money right now. I'm not saying that during this time I won't be doing little short films here and there that I can afford to do, but I wont be doing anything too time consuming. I don't know where I'll be working next, or even durning the hiatus, but I'll find something!

Promo work.... well, as me and my good friend Cassie have come to find, promo work is easy and a great source of money..... IF YOU EVER GET PAID! I worked an event for Latinconcepts inc back in March and I was about to call them AGAIN, (6th time) and demand to know where my check was... and then it just came in the mail today. whew! I got lucky. But one thing is for sure! I WILL NOT BE COUNTING ON PROMO WORK EVER AGAIN, UNLESS IT PAYS CASH SAME DAY.

I'll probably pick up a serving job and just work as much as humanly possible till have the money I need to move out... if you have any suggestions, I'd love to hear em :)

Also, Ryan is finally moving out of Simi! (yaaay!)

As of June 1st (hey, that was my goal!) Ryan will move in with his college friends, Johnny and Jackson (who just happen to be a producer and an actor/writer). He will be living in LA, off of olympic/pico. I am so happy for him!

In the mean time, please keep me in your prayers as I rough it out these next few months....

xoxo

going green?

I have recently become fascinated with the term "going green".

I have never been one to particularly care about the environment. I've always been one of those old fashioned, God-gave-us-animals-to-eat, fur-is-for-wearing, trees-are-for-paper kind of girl.

However, (maybe it's just living in LA, around a bunch of new age liberals?) I have recently been more aware of how much people waste. Not only that recycling is important, and I intend to be better about that (I go thru ALOT of water bottles a week), but putting less crap into your body and your home is also important.

I'm not sure what "Going Green" means. But, having just watched an Oprah earth day special, I am inclined to blog about it!

First, Recycling. Recycling has been around for a long time, and you can make money doing it! I used to save all my water bottles and soda cans and recycle them at Ralphs parking lot, along with bringing all my spare change I'd find in my room and my car, and make about 20 bucks just cleaning out my car! I do it about twice a year, when things really accumulate. You should try it if you ever have a day for cleaning and whatnot. It doesn't take long and you can make a major dent in land fills. 

Next, Organic! What does organic mean?

Organic foods are produced without the use of conventional pesticides, artificial fertilizers , human waste, or sewage sludge, and they were processed without radiation or food additives. The livestock are reared without the routine use of antibiotics (which i think is a little weird) and without growth hormones (what woman needs MORE hormones!?) Organic food is better for you, and actually better for the livestock. Even though it is a little bit more expensive, it could be worth it just for the taste and quality. Studies show that organic apples are sweeter than regular apples, because there was no chemical ripening. (gross?!)  

There are many things you can do to help the environment. Most of them are expensive, like Whole Foods, and Hybrid cars. But if you care to pick up your trash and show big companies that your money would rather go to environmentally friendly and healthy products, they will listen. Already, you cant go to a supermarket without seeing "organic" "less sodium" and "made from recycled paper" on lots of products. The market listens to what you spend your money on, so *IF* you have the luxury of choice, make the right one.

Hope this was helpful... I kinda feel like I'm just rattling now...

And yes, I'll still be having bacon for breakfast, my turkey sub for lunch and steak for dinner, because I there are some things a girl just can't give up. (fancy chocolates, manicures and a great shoe collection, just to name a few...)

xoxo

walking-bob-marley-song-am-i

My internet is still down, I think it has something to do with my laptop, not the connection now... Bummer.

In any case!

Hello Lovelies!

I return, if only for a moment (and sadly, without pictures) to remind you, well, I'm still alive :)

I have been laid off from Mavericks, pretty much due to no reason at all. I have been unfairly phased off the schedule and I don't know why. I thought I would be moving out June 1st, but, as I have lost my job, and any source of income, that seems very hard to do right now. Also, my potential roomate is thinking about having her boyfriend move in instead...... what? ah, well, forget that!! 

So after much worrying, stressing-out and praying, I have finally come to peace with my current situation. I have been rather depressed lately (as I get when I am broke) because of many factors:

• I finally have all the time in the world to hang out, go out on auditions and do fun stuff, but no (gas or shopping) money to do it with. I never seem to have the time to enjoy my money, or the money to enjoy my free time (i.e. looking for a job).
• Mimi was out visiting this week from Atlanta. It was a good visit, she stayed in my room for 3 nights and we got some really good talks in. However, as I greet her the first day, she says with her hands open for a hug "Ambie!! How are you!? I've missed you!! I have cancer!" ....what? just like that?! WHO DOES THAT! anyway, she is having surgery next week on her head to remove the cancerous lump, then allowing herself one day to recover before she goes back out to grand rapids!
• When I finally get the guts and the research done to MOVE OUT on my OWN, my plans get foiled!

So, That is why I have been stressed and moody lately...

Good news-

After visiting with Mimi and having the prayer support of Ryan and Mimi the past few weeks, I am feeling a strange peace about everything. Like, Just like a walking-Bob-Marley-song-peacefulness.  Its nice. And it's keeping me sane.

I'll probably be back to extra work until I figure out my next plan of attack, which is fine, but boring :(

k, I have to get off this computer now!

GOOD DAY!

At last I have a chance to blog!

Hello lovers!

I return, if only for a while, from the sweet comfort of my boyfriends abode. I am using his internet for the time being, as my laptop is still unresponsive.

Lets catch up, shall we?

**WARNING: LONG BLOG AHEAD**

This past month I have had lots of wonderful things happen. and some bad things.

Lets start with my brand shiny new modeling agency, PEAK MODELS AND TALENT. Peak is based out of Valencia, and they are totally sweet, nice people. I have already had 2 audition opportunities since joining with them last month (better than I can say for my old agency... *cough...cough..S.A.S...cough*)

I look forward to more *paid* modeling jobs in the future, as well as fit modeling, which is wonderful!

Also I was offered a role in a short mini-series written by Matt Herington, the writer of another short I (and Cassie, oddly enough) were in earlier on in the year. However, it never finished because of editing/crew issues.

The series is about two brothers getting into a lot of trouble and always managing to get out of it, basically. (Sorry, Matt, I'm not very good at describing plots!)

I Play the older brothers (the more sensible one) girlfriend, who ends up being kidnapped and held hostage. It will only take one day of filming so far, though there are more episodes to be filmed. I will be shooting that Monday morning at 9am.

Which just so happens to be right BEFORE I get to see MIMI!!! :)

Mimi Is my grandma, but she raised me from 11yrs old to now, and she is who I consider a "Mom". She is fun, VERY PATIENT, and a very wonderful lady. I invited her out to cali-for-ni-a for some sun and good times over her 65th birthday. She is widowed and all alone in Georgia now that I left, so she (and I) are very excited to spend time together. I hope you all get to meet her while she is here, you'll love her.

One downer is, I need I new job.

And recently I have come to the goal that I want to move out of my room and into my own apartment by (around) June 1st.

I was paying off my credit cards (slowly but surely) and saving up a bit of money but something always happens when I do that... I am now getting my hours at work significantly cut. I went from 4-5 days a week, to 1 or none at all. I have tried everything I can to get more hours and make more money where I am at, but it just is not possible at this point. So after much deliberation, I have decided to do 1 of two things:

1. 
   
   
   Get a new job or get a second job I can work Mon-Fri, and work my little butt off to save up as much money as possible until June, then put in my two weeks notice after I have already found a nice serving job in NoHo, and move into my new place, with a secured job, and start going out on auditions again, from time to time.



2. 
   
   
   Submit submit submit. As much as possible for promo jobs, (mainly, bc they pay the best) and also modeling/acting gigs, and any temp gig I can get to make money here and there, while still going out on auditions and filming here and there. Hope that I get a great paying promo gig that will allow me to get a job in NoHo, and move into my own place.

I vote for situation number one, mostly because I'm sure it will work.

So if anybody knows of any great places that are hiring, let me know! I just applied at a hotel in Simi, for a front desk position. Boring? Yes, but it pays well, and I can amuse myself just about anywhere.

I also had a photoshoot at Studio A (just a little TFCD thing) with Ryan and Cassie. We had a great wardrobe stylist/Designer Brand1982, an MUA and several photographers and abour 7 models total. I got to wear a beautiful Brown grecian hand made gown and Cassie wore a fantastic flapper-length creamy, laced play dress. Ryan stuck mostly to headshots:)

I also had a fun shoot with JC Olivera in Simi, over by the old railroad station, and I cant wait to see how those came out! I'll post them asap, when I get them, but it might be awhile, as he travels quite a bit...

Last but not least, Cassie and I went to Malibu Beach today and caught up, both got "cute" little sun burns on our backs, and tomorrow, after my audition for a Sorority Web-series in LA at noon (yay!), we shall have a girl day! Full of pampering, nothing in particular, and pinkberry!

Good DAY!

no internets

i know i know.

i havent been keeping up my blog.

my room is under-going construction, new door and finishing the windows, so there is not elecrticity most of the time and its very dark. i havent spent much time at home lately because of the fact that my room is a war zone, everything piled onto my bed by construction workers. yay.

I have been working all weekend and i worked this morning and now i am about to go back to work to cover somebody else's shift, because why? because i need the money!! duh.

Tomorrow i have the day off and Kevin, Dad and I are going to celebrate my little brothers birthday which was thursday. Happy 16th Birthday Brock!!

oh, and guess what? I have an agency again!

**PEAK MODELS**. check em out. www.peakmodels.com and no, im not giving my hopes up, thinking ill be a supermodel or anything, i just like to know that im being submitted for stuff:)

and the search for a legit agent continues....

oh and i wrapped "Room For Rent" yesterday and it was really funny, even though my part was very small... but you know what they say, there are no small parts... only small actors. and let me tell you, i was not small! lol.

oh and i saw the movie Leatherheads with my Dad yesterday. It was good, very "old hollywood" and fun. not the fastest-paced movie ever, but still worth seeing, probably with your parents. because thats who its aimed at.

gotta go back to work now!!

hopefully ill have an internet connection to call my own soon!!

xoxo

aye.

Sorry I have been a very bad blogger!!

I've been pretty busy. So busy I've pretty much lost track of things.

Hmmm.

Oh! I had a photoshoot after a long time of waiting with Timothy Whitfield with Timberwolf photography! It went great! He is such a nice guy and we got some great images in a very short amount of time.

I worked this weekend and just BARELY made rent. ugh. and rent is being raised 100 bucks next month because "I'm not in school". awesome. My family definately does not understand what i'm doing here. thats for sure. *le sigh* but thats ok, i still love them. As always, I'll take what I can get...

Monday I got to hang out with Michaela and Alli after months of seperation, literally. We jammed out to some new tunes I burned on a CD for her and worked out the past two days, which I really needed!!

Yesterday I slept in and parused (spelling?) Borders with short stack. Then I finally met up with Valeri (Bridal Photoshoot ) and got a disk of images from the shoot. She still has to mail me the model release and the photographers release and the Magic Castle Pass :(

Then I went over to the valley to hang out with Anna (actress from Morbid) and her 2 friends and we watched a funny little short she did for her directing class and had cake and champagne! The best way to end a day!

Today I have a few meetings, the first of which is for a modeling agency (well, they say modeling and talent, which dosnt really mean acting, but can mean tradeshows and promos) for a fit model interview (not print). Which is great because if they use me that would be a really easy and well paying job to have! That is at 2pm in Valencia. Then I have Work at 5.

Tomorrow I have a day full of photoshoots (I really dont know how this happens). First JC Olivera (from the Golden Globes and Getty Images) is coming all the way out to simi valley to shoot with me in a park (possible MUA, though she is M.I.A at the moment) and shoot 2-3 outfits real quick at 11am. then, at 530 I have to be out in West Covina for another Studio A photoshoot with Albert and JP (the MUA) who wants to do another crazy make up shoot (which I'm always down for!!) She wants to do a Marie Antionette theme :) fun!

Friday I need to pay some parking tickets and a fix-it-ticket and work at six.

This weekend I'll be working in the morning (barf) and shooting "Room For Rent" for reals this time, because it got cancelled last minute last tme by the AD messing up lol.

I know I'm leavingout stuff but I must get coffee and get ready for my interview!!

love you!

Acting is a JOB. and I'm applying...

Listening to Tony The Beat by The Sounds.............................<3

Ok so I've had a lot of time to myself the past couple days but never have I been more active in my acting plans. I've been reading "Acting is a JOB" by Jason Pugatch. I am almost done after picking it up this afternoon.

It is mostly about acting in theater and in NYC, but the last half of it goes into film and tv, the unions, to train or not to train, Typecasting (very helpful), starting out in the biz, first impressions, agent interviews, the casting game and learning to never, ever, under any circumstance wear your hair in a ponytail when auditioning.

I am checkingout my test prints of our headshots tomorrow hopefully. I would have had them sooner, but I had no way of calling! (but I should have my new helio by thursday, thank God!)

After I actually recieve new headshots, I intend to get rid of them. as fast as possible. yes, it is still pilot season, and NO, I dont have an agent, but that dosnt mean I can't put my face out there when all the jobs are casting anyway. If someone needs a sassy freckled redhead, they will call me regardless of my union status or agent (I hope). Also I am going to take the advice of a lovely blonde 17 yr old's advice on landing an agent. I am going to Samuel French and getting a huge list of agents and letterheads and sending out my headshots and humble resume' (though I do have to say my resume is much improved from last year's 2 music video extra roles I had :o )

To all the agencies I can find... Ryan too. He is too good of an actor to NOT have an agent by now.

Then, depending on the response I get from that I will do 2 things.

-If I get a huge response (over 5 agencies wanting to meet up with me or sign me) I will move to hollywood as soon as possible and find a killer serving job and a cheap apartment so I can be more available for auditions if I sign with a decent agent. And I will keep my headshot.

-If I get no response (which is honestly what I'm expecting this late into the pilot season) I will get a second job, save up more money, get all new headshots, get them reprinted and get a few more lines on my resume filled up before I send out another mass-mailing of my spiffy new headshot and resume.

My friend Elisa (see pictured-->) moved here from Michigan in September and she already has an agent, by doing just what I laid out. Of course, she is 17. and her mom supports her. So I have that to go against. But I am happy that she had a great support network. It is so needed in this cutthroat biz. My family may think I am throwing my life away and not understand me, but Ryan is my support. He continues to encourage me and build me up when I feel overwhelmed, which is often! Everyone needs someone and I am very thankful that I have an understand boyfriend and supporter.

OH!

I forgot to blog about my filming experience on my first feature indie film!

Morbid: A Love Story!

I filmed allll day in the leading lady's aprmt in encino. Anna, the leading lady is hilarious and a great actress. Elisa, the 17 yr old blonde who plays the innocent best friend (my character countering by being bitchy party-girl) and reminded me alot of my friends back home, still innocent and very UN-LA. It was nice :)

Filming was long, yet we accomplished 12 pages in a day, which seemed great considering they were all different scenes! It was HOT and humid because the refigerator and a/c had to be turned off for noise. (the things you never think about as an actor...)

Anyway! I had a lot of fun and can't wait to film the "party" scene where I lead "Belle" into total debauchery! and I get to do my make up all crazy.

This weekend I get to film "Room For Rent", playing a fresh-out-of-rehab punk rocker looking for a room. that will be fun:)

Oh, and if youre wondering what to do on thursday, I'll be at the beach taking advantage of the perfect sunny weather that only LA gets this early in the year, seriously working on my tan.

good day!

out of reach, but still alive.

Well last week totally kicked my butt.





Friday was high-speed greeting, running in high heels, inhaling very little food and scattering around to find comfortable flats (reasonably priced) in the hollywood and highland complex. This of course AFTER they forgot to tell us we could have worn black flats instead of 2 inch black patent leather heels. I was fortunate enough to find a comfy pair of black ballet flats at ALDO, even though they were NOT cheap. but my ankles were bleeding from pain, so I bought them 7 hours in to the Verizon "Winner's Circle" Banquet. I met a very nice promo girl from Long Beach, who does promo modeling full time, around getting her communications degree. She ALSO survives without an agent. See? Not everyone needs to be told how to get work. She survives on her references and Ed Hardy calls her back just about every week. We both agree having an agent would be nice (for promo work! NOT for acting. I would love an acting agent!) however, a promo agent would not work with, well, having a (social) life, as many events come last minute, and have long hours.





Also, on Thursday, I was trying to take a picture of Ryan and he deflected it by slapping the phone out of my hand, crashing to the floor. Supressing my inner panic-attack about to happen, I pick up the phone and inspect it, TRYING to not yell at my otherwise lovely boyfriend. My beautiful Helio Drift is broken. Snapped shut and off its little tracks. It wont even light up anymore.

Alas, he offered to pay for a new one (thus saving our relationship), as I had insurance on the phone and it would cost 50 bucks to replace it. However, I being the tech-savy actress that I am, yearned for a better version. I craved a faster, better, more useful sidekick of phones. So I upgraded to the Helio Ocean. It is the first dual slider, full numeric keypad and full keyboard. All the capabilities of an Iphone, except the Ipod and touch screen, which drives me crazy anyways. Unlike the Iphone, the Ocean can send Picture Messeges, not just recieve them. It has the same speed and memory as an Iphone, and it is the best mobile reciever to get Youtube and myspace, which come free. So as excited as I am to get my sleek new Helio Ocean (same number, don't worry:) I am tired of being out-of-the-loop. I DON'T EVEN KNOW THE DATE TODAY! I have not spoken to my friends or family, I missed shifts at work because they "called my phone", and I am now set back financially from buying a $200 phone, with speedy shipping, because I just can't take not having a cell anymore. Ah well. I just ate a handful of grapes. I wanted Subway, but I'm gonna have to settle for grapes, because I bought a stinkin new phone. I can't even call Ryan from my house phone, because he has a "long-distance" area code!!


grrr. sorry. just had to vent for a minute..





In other news! I went to church on Sunday with Ryan and quite enjoyed it. The pastor didn't preach, he spoke casually in a way yours truley could understand, all the while keeping my attention! Hooray! Also, my best friend of 8 years, Bekah got to spend Easter in the Holy Land. Lucky!! I want to go to Israel so badly!





Also, today I found 5 Borders gift cards in my purse. I (thanks to Cassie, my little Yoda) went to check out some good reads on acting. I ordered the much acclaimed "Hollywood, Here I come" by Cynthia (something?) and bought "Acting is a JOB" by Jason Pugatch (real life lessons about the biz, and taking your career seriously) also bought "Acting For The Camera" by Tony Barr (I havnt started reading this one yet but I stumbled across it today when it was supposed to be completely out-of-print. It is something I need to read, coming from a strictly theater background.) Even though I am cut out from the world, save gmail and my blog, I am keeping myself very happy playing the starving (literally) actress, alone in her own world of books, art and inspiration. Though I would much rather be at the beach with my friends, which was the original plan for today before the loss of my Helio.


I will let you know how the books are. Also I found a neat little paper-bound book called 200 best comedic monologues 2 mins and under. that has some funny stuff in there, and I almost bought it, but I figure I can always go back to that when I have an actual NEED for a monologue. I havnt, since I've moved out here. How sad.





This week shall go something like this:





Tomorrow: Work at 5ish.





Wednesday: Read for actors in a casting call. I volunteered to read andbe part of the "casting process" that has fascinated me for so long. I want to know what it's like on the "other" side of the table...





Thurs: work at 6ish.





Fri: work at 6ish.





Sat: Filming the short youtube-to-be short film about the strange people you find on craigslist "Room For Rent" ay 10 am, work at 2pm til 8ish?





Sun: work at 10am, unless I can somehow change it to a dinner shift. And I will try.





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xoxo

This week filled up pretty fast!

I picked up an extra shift tonight at work, so thats money in the bank.





Also I am a little excited. Amy and I have been looking around for rooms and apartments and lofts in NOHO (yay!) and Tarzana (egh.) SHe even has a 3rd roommate lined up that is a history major at Pepperdine U. The problem is we all want to live in different areas. I in Hollywood, Amy near Burbank and her friend near Pepperdine (Malibu). So we agreed on NoHo or the Valley near the freeways. With the 3rd roommate having good credit and willing to pay up to $1,000 for her own room, Amy and I will be saving some major money. We have had OK luck on craigslist. We are meeting up tomorrow to make a master roster of available rooms in sensible areas and then going driving around to check them out. If all goes well, and we manage a very cheap room, I might be actually moving out!!! whoo!! Now the problem is finding a job once I get out there that pays BANK. I could go back to extra work but I still don't think Non Union extra work is going to get me anywhere with rent... at least we will be near nice resturaunts so I can get another job doing my FAVORITE thing in the whole world again....waiting tables :(





Good news!


Ryan and I ordered our headshots today and I am very happy with paying 83 bucks for 100 prints! If you need cheap, good headshots printed out, check out http://www.imagexperts.com/ . You can upload your photo online, pick your own rad border and put your name on the bottom in any font/color you like. I chose to pick them up, because I didnt want to pay for shipping. They are right of Sunset Blvd in Hollywood. I'll let you know what they look like printed out.


They also do greeting cards, normal photos and (model and actors) BUSINESS CARDS!





Also I found out what I will be doing on Friday. Thanks to craigslist.org I will be doing promo work on fri. in Hollywood. It's for a Verizon banquet and awards ceremony for the nations top sellers. Its going to be very nice and look like the grammys basically. Me and one other girl will be greeting and handing out awards and looking pretty from 1pm-midnight. a little long, but I wouldn't be doing anything on a friday night anyways. I got a picture of what the girls will be wearing on friday. Its a black outfit with coat tails and a top hat and leggings. I just have to buy some black heels before then. (How do I not own black heels?!?)
<------- my uniform friday. HA!




oh well, looks like I'll just have to go shopping, boo hoo :}





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Tomorrow-


Meet up with Amy to narrow down apartments and drive by prospective rooms.





Thurs-


Memorize lines and Film "Restless" end scene. Meet up with V for CD and prints of the "Trash the Dress" Photoshoot and get me pass to the Magic Castle!!





Fri-


Promo work aaaaaaaaaalllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll day. 1pm-midnight in heels. eggh.





Sat-


Fiming my scene in "Morbid: A Love Story"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay!!





Sun-


Happy Easter! I'll be closing work.