fun math?

thats right baby,

im back.

I have a brand new mac book. I'm pretty sure any ounce that Ryan does not own of my heart, belongs to Alice (my mac book's name). There is just simply too much to catch up on. First on my agenda.... to list my agenda, i suppose. let's use bullets.

• fun math
• list of jobs I've had in the small amount of time I've been offline.
• Ryan
• Christi
• film and la la land
• starting on whats inside my head, in the positive sense, lately. mainly life stories and secrets.

Very well, then.

Fun Math.

Yes, those two words did just come together, if only once.

I am looking into a proper job. You know, one with above minimum wage rates, health insurance and benefits? To tell you the truth I've never really considered this before but in talking to Christi *(a very helpful new friend i will get to later) I found that an insurance company is hiring RIGHT NEXT to my house. Literally, within walking distance. Starting at around 12 to 15 and hr full time, 8-5. I could really use that kind of money, especially after having to take out a payday loan for rent this month.

I've been thinking about said "cube" job for the past few days. These are the terms that I have come to. pro's and con's.

• PRO'S: Money. around $480 a week, rounding down to the starting pay of 12 and hour. a week. and they pay weekly. Benefits. Wheter or not it comes with discounted health insurance plans (which im pretty sure it does) I would be able to afford to get my teeth cleaned, get birth control and adderall renewed. I can't even think of how fantastic that would be. and if i had adderall, i could work harder. Also, It is within walking distance from my house. I could save a ton of gas and car problems, and get into better shape! Also, if i ever wanted to transfer (which I couldnt ever see happening) I could transfer to any smaller office from corporate. 
• CON'S: It's tedious, and I'll be surrounded by people older than me that dont understand actors. Which I suppose doesnt really matter, but how can I pretend to be someone I'm not at lunch break? (I guess I could "act", hehe) It's from 8-5 every weekday (and no, i dont know that for sure. maybe i could work later in the day somehow, or 4 days a week instead of 5, incase central casting decides to passout SAG vouchers like hot cakes when I can't take them again. long story....) 8-5. More getting up early (which im NOT good at.) which would mean so many things; being late unless i could run to starbucks every morning or have adderall, not being able to have a social life as all my friends are servers and they start work at 5, have to see my family more, as i will have the EXACT same schedule as them (gag!) and I have a feeling i'll be seeing even LESS of Ryan. I'll be getting off work and he will either still be at work or be getting off around midnight..... in LA. and because I have to get up at 7 (at least) I wont be able to go out late. ever. Also, I risk having my family getting the idea that I'm suddenly becoming responsible and giving up on acting in some way, while at the same time disappointing my acting friends, thinking ive given up on my craft, by taking a life consuming "day job". Another worry is that I won't be any good at it, or i'll end up getting fired for waking up late or missing work for a film.... Or even worse, missing a film for work. It's true, you are constantly disappointing SOMEONE in this crazy industry...

Now keep in mind I'm mostly just getting my ideas sorted and venting right now. Also keep in mind that my pro's and con's are listed in order of importance for the most part.

$12/hr x 40/hrs a week = $480

$480 x 4 weeks = $1,920 a month.

right now im making about $400-600 a month. depending on how many hours i manage and how many gigs i land and how much i eat.

The next numbers is just for me, they dont make sense bc i've rounded up and not explained them....

cell bill= 140 on a bad month of overages.

wamu cc= 700 total to pay off

wells fargo cc= 2000 total to pay off

car insurance= 600, twice a yr, due next month.

rent= 300

bare minimum living expenses= 100/ month.

this month with loan (add $300)

140

600

600

100

300 for cc's

=1,740

anyway,

remaining cc debt= 2700 (rounded way up)

minus 1 month of work's paychecks= $780

minus 1 month of work's paychecks=$1,140 LEFT OVER.

*********So, 3 months of solid work, debt gone. I think I can do that...***************

I think I will try that.